A whole lot of me whining.

Apparently someone really wants me to write something. I guess I can write a little.
It's official: I NEED to find another source of income. I got a letter in the mail today telling me that I am no longer eligible for unemployment, the TAA program, or the TRA program. I've been expecting this letter for a while now, so I'm not surprised or terribly upset. It merely means that I will have to come up with the money on my own now. I've finally comprehended that I can't ask Dave for help for anything. I could be dying today, and I wouldn't ask him to lend me a dime. I did ask my father for some money, which is a very, very rare thing for me to do, but he tells me he doesn't have any to spare for me. I'm not too surprised by that either. When I was 16, I got my first full-time job. From that point on, I've been pretty much on my own, and anything I want, I have to find a way to get it myself, because there is no help coming from him. For a long time I was rather bitter about that. My siblings ask for money a whole lot more often than I do, and they pretty much get anything they want. Over the years I've learned to just accept the fact that there is nobody in my family who both could and would give me money on the rare occasions when I need some. My sister tells me she has some saved, and I can have it if I need it, but she also has 2 young children, and I won't take that money from her. She may need it soon. I think a lot of the feelings I've been having in the last 2 or 3 weeks stem from the fact that I know there is noone in the world that I can ask for help (financially) and know I will get it. I have never been the type who could just let the bills pile up unpaid, so I will find a way to make some money, and if I have to get a job while I go to school, I guess I will do that. I don't want to, because I think my school work will suffer, but on the other hand, any job I get now will probably have benefits like insurance, 401k, and PTO, among other things. I need insurance. If I let my teeth go too much longer, I won't have any left.
I guess that is enough whining out of me today.